There's two people I know who are going through the mill just now. One is struggling with medications and the other is struggling without them. The first friend has been on meds for nearly 40 years now, and has got it down to a fine art. He tweaks the pills regularly, to adjust his state of mind; a sliver of a tablet can make a difference. He reads up on all the literature, knows milligrams and side effects like the back of his hand. He reads the DSM for leisure and surfs the psychiatric med forums to find out what other people say about the drugs he takes. And yet... he's been down lately, and demotivated. The drugs aren't working as he wants, and he is counting the days until he can see his doctor and adjust the prescription.